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After two years of running “the chocolate puma”, it is time to say goodbye!! sharing my thoughts, feelings, experiences and life changes with each of you was a pleasure. i knew that turning 30 would change my life in the most amazing ways!! the past six months since my last post have definitely been transformational in the most positive, loving and glowing way possible! words can’t really describe everything so instead i am sharing some pictures to end with on a heart-felt, love-filled note. thanks and many blessings to you!

i met the LOVE OF MY LIFE this past summer!! Becca brings me more love and joy than i ever thought possible.  i am grateful for her everyday and for everything that brought us together.

heidi and becca. camping trip. 2013.

heidi and becca. camping trip. 2013.

Coming into partnership, i adopted two of the most adorable and loving cats in the WORLD! Dogen and Roshi have brought so many cuddles of love into my everyday life!!

Dogen and Roshi. the boys.

Dogen and Roshi. the boys.

Feeling nourished with a lot of superfood smoothies, green juices, yummy paleo dishes, raw chocolate and family time over the past months has been amazing!!

raw chocolate superfood smoothie!

raw chocolate superfood smoothie!

protein packed salad!!  all organic. gluten free. non-gmo.

protein packed salad!! all organic. gluten free. non-gmo.

i am so grateful for getting back into my body and ridding myself of chronic pain that i dealt with for almost 3 years!! this has been something i celebrate everyday!

power yoga. back in my body!

power yoga. back in my body!

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what i am the most grateful for is for the love, compassion, courage and trust that i have given to MYSELF. without this, i would not be where i am today. for all my past experiences, the present and trusting the path of my future. i am forever in gratitude.

love. compassion. courage.

love. compassion. courage.

PEACE, LOVE AND NAMASTE!!

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greetings!

last week, i posted this on my facebook page as my status message:

i am so IN LOVE with my life! = the magical space that i carry with me everyday. this feeling is always within us but we must also go through the discomfort, pain and lows in order to fully appreciate the beautifulness of each present moment!! i want to offer space to anyone today to reach out to me if you need some support, love and encouragement in your LIFE. you are and EPIC BE-ing of light, spirit and beauty and deserve to be shown that each day through your own eyes i am in deep gratitude for all that has brought me to this level of consciousness and oneness with my warrior Goddess and Spirit within. ❤ in maitri.

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these feelings have been building up ever since i returned from the Buckeye Gathering. (which i still have to share about on a post!) each morning, around 6:30 am, i prepare a cup of half-caf french pressed coffee (i am on the path to eliminate caffeine from my system after my juice fast showed me how much i depend on so little of it.) and i sit on my balcony to write. i am joined by the morning birds, 4 redwood trees, the sweet smell of dawn breaking into the new day and sometimes the neighborhood cats prowling about below. for the past 5 months, i have been writing down 3 things i am grateful for each day along with my daily intention. then, i just allow my mind to wonder and words to flow out of my pen to paper.

the amount of gratefulness that has opened up inside of me is directly related to this simple exercise. when i first started it, sometimes it was hard to find three things to be grateful for. my heart and soul was still in a painful place and not much brought me joy. but, as time went on, more and more came to life and i became grateful for the smallest moments along with the biggest accomplishments. if i have been able to reach this depth of gratefulness, you can too!

these are my thoughts from the other morning when i was thinking about how humans pass judgement on others. (note: the below excerpt is exactly how it appeared when i wrote it the first time. some run on sentences but that is the point of a streaming verse of subconscious thoughts in action! 🙂

stream of my unconscious thoughts.

the beauty and essence of my being is LOVE.
i am Love and i choose to be Love over fear each day.
i am not what society defines me as.
i am not my name. i am not my race, ethnicity, gender or sexuality.
i am not my diet, my clothes, my dreadlocks, tattoos and piercings.
i am not my words. my voice. my silence.
i am not my actions, thoughts and ideas.
i am simply a Divine Warrior Goddess of LOVE.
we all are love, no matter where we came from in this lifetime (or others.)
my Spirit transforms into my thoughts and i choose to act on them each day.
the energy from thoughts is what brings fourth all that encompasses every cell in my being.
i used to spend many moments living in fear and now i know that i can choose instead to live my thoughts, actions and words in LOVE. i strive to this higher being each day. it is my overriding intention for my life in this body, this soul, who is known as Heidi ‘chocolate puma’ George.
i am merely a vessel for something deeper than i can even comprehend.
i pray each day that others find this level of freedom within their own heart and soul.
my role is to be of service to others and channel the strength and power of my Divine Warrior Goddess to be the LOVE that we all so deeply desire and deserve to attain from others and most importantly from ourselves.

Aho!

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mid-hike break to enjoy the beautiful view and warm sun! 🙂
deer park, fairfax, ca

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morning ritual: Daring Greatly and french-pressed cup of Guatemalan coffee beans from Sight Glass.

the V word: VULNERABILITY.

“we cultivate love when we allow our most vulnerable and powerful selves to be deeply seen and known, and when we honor the spiritual connection that grows from that offering with trust, respect, kindness and affection. love is not something we give or get; it is something that we nurture and grow, a connection that can only be cultivated between two people when it exists within each one of them – we can only love others as much as we love ourselves. shame, blame, disrespect, betrayal, and the withholding of affection damage the roots from which love grows. love can only survive these injuries if they are acknowledged, healed, and rare.”  –Daring Greatly by Brene Brown

i have been learning a lot about vulnerability over the past few weeks. i am currently reading the book Daring Greatly by Brene Brown. many of you might know her from the ted talk she gave a couple years ago called, “The Power of Vulnerability”. this is where i first learned about her and am now in the process of reading her books. Daring Greatly is her most recent book and it is about how the courage to be vulnerable can transform the way we live, love parent and lead.

each morning, along with a fresh-pressed cup of coffee, i have been reading this book. while i understood the correlation between shame and vulnerability, i found myself thinking that while i am vulnerable a lot in my life, i don’t really feel shame within myself. i could not have been more wrong! within the same day of having that thought, i later was caught up in the middle of feeling shame, fear, grief and “never enough” for a past relationship in my life. once again, i was in awe of the powers that we have within us to allow ourselves to have these feelings. then, to accept them, love them and release them. the moment i let go and let myself feel these intense thoughts, i immediately felt a tremendous weight leaving me. i had transformed those feelings of shame and worthlessness into love, compassion and kindness towards myself. these are the three feelings that i have been holding as my intention for this year.

i have always felt pride for myself in the light that i am vulnerable. but, we can always go further and push more through the vulnerability stream. although, there is a fine line of being vulnerable and sharing too much, too soon with another person. (this is discussed in-depth in the book.) i have been in both places. of letting it all out too soon and also not opening enough because of the fear and shame that i held inside. but, in the end, i always believe in LOVE. and, in my opinion, loving is by far the most vulnerable act that humans can express.

i came up with a list of how my life has transformed because i had the courage to be vulnerable:

* i always wore boys tennis shoes when i was a kid even though i got picked on for it.
* i was the only female percussionist in grade school.
* i became a vegetarian at age 13 while growing up in a small town in Ohio.
* i was one of the biggest Spice Girls fans. ever. and told everyone how much i loved them.
* i came out to my parents and everyone i knew, when i was 21.
* i tell people “i love you” even if i know they are not ready to say it in return.
* i lived alone for a year.
* i moved from ohio to san francisco without a plan or idea as to what i would do with my life.
* i have dreadlocks, tattoos and piercings.
* i’ve been fired from 3 jobs and have learned a lot from those experiences.
* i moved to a small town, not knowing anyone but had to follow my heart.
* i started doing crossfit before anyone knew what it was and would cry during workouts because it brought up so much emotions for me.
* i gave my heart to lovers. received loved and have felt the heartbreak that comes with the joy.
* i traveled through Ecuador for two weeks on a solo trip.
* i started to meditate.
* i read self help books.
* i started this blog.
* i went back to school.
* i ask friends and family for help when i am in need.
* i let more people into my life even if that means i may loose them later.
* i am creating my own health coaching practice.
* i let myself cry. when i am alone or around loved ones.
* i let myself be me.

i have developed more love, compassion and kindness to myself over the years because of these moments of vulnerability. i challenge you to do this exercise as well. think back through your life at moments you displayed vulnerability. write them down in a journal and maybe share them with your partner, best friend or pet. this is a powerful exercise and will fill you with even more courage to continue on your journey in life. we all have a story to tell and we all have a unique purpose to share who we are with others. keep the connection flowing and the love alive!

i am now in the fourth week of posting my “thoughts of gratitude and abundance” quotes. over the last six months, i have been studying and practicing Buddhism, mainly through the teachings of Pema Chodron. i just finished her book, “Start Where You Are” and took the follow quote from my reading:

the more you’re willing to open your heart, the more challenges come along that make you want to shut it. -Pema Chodron

namaste

well, isn’t that the truth! 🙂 i found myself struggling with having an open-heart this past week. i can not pin point a particular situation that happened except i just found than that the little voice in my head would say one thing and my heart-gut would refute it immediately! this led me to finally sitting with my thoughts and allowing my breath to bring me back to the heart-center.
our mind is an amazing tool and i am learning through research and my own observations that out heart-center (and not just our physical heart but, as i like to say, heart-gut) is what has the ability to choose. we have the opportunity to choose in every moment: we can either walk around with a closed-heart in the face of fear or we can choose to remain open no matter what the world throws our way. i understand that this is tricky and i battle with it on a daily basis. but, at the end of the day, i know that by being open and loving and offering kindness to each other, that is what will truly help us heal one another. i challenge you to go fourth today with a completely open-heart and you will see the kindness reflected back to you!
namaste.

try to learn to stay. learn to accept the present moment as if you had invited it. and work with it instead of against it. -Pema Chodron

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i have been intently studying the Buddhist teachings of Pema Chodron over the last six months. coming from a Christian background of being told what is “right” and what is “wrong”, Buddhism offers an approach that is filled with unconditional love, compassion and acceptance for all sentient beings. diving into the works of Pema Chodron has opened my heart and mind to cultivating love and kindness to myself and the experiences i face each day.

the quote i chose for this week was one that i meditate on frequently. simply learning to stay in your body. stay with your thoughts. stay with your joys and your fears. stay in the present moment. i challenge you to give it a try this week. you have nothing to lose and absolutely everything to gain from within. namaste.

books i have read and re-read many times (and recommend) by Pema Chodron:
Taking the Leap
Start Where You Are
Comfortable with Uncertainty
Getting Unstuck

kombucha

13 bottles and counting!

after living out of my car for almost a month, my kombucha bottles started to pile up! i know i bought way more than 13 over that time period but some got tossed in the recycle bin. after noticing how many bottles i had, i asked myself: “is this a healthy addiction?” what are your thoughts on this?

now that i am settled into a semi-permanent place, i am going to be making my own kombucha very soon! to read more about the benefits of fermentation, check out the article i wrote for Breaking Muscle, “The Real Reasons Your Guts Need Fermented Foods”. another great resource is the website, Wild Fermentation.

have a great weekend, everyone! 🙂

the loudest cheers came from the sidelines this year and i was a part of it for the first time. i never realized how much the spectators at the annual TJs Games put into their efforts to cheer on their fellow teammates until i was on the other side. it was an equally amazing experience just as participating in the games always is for me.

but, to be honest, i was absolutely devastated when i realized that i would have to drop out of the games this year. it’s not like i was out to win a prize full of gold or a year supply of protein powder but, i still wanted the thrill and excitement that comes along with that day. i had been waiting for months to spend all day with my “crossfit family”.
with my friends and community.
to push through those crazy WODs and to go to the places that scare you the most and come out a winner in the end.
but. it was not my story to tell this year.

two weeks leading up to the games, the nerves in my neck started to lock up again. i keep thinking that if i rested a week before the competition, i would be ok. then, a few days before game time, i had a visit with my doctor, “the thumb”, and he basically said to not lift anything heavy over my head. my heart sunk deep down in my gut and i began to battle with the forces of my ego and she was coming on strong!

i went back and fourth with the pros and cons of competing. i sought advice from two good friends (Sunya & Jamie) and i looked back on my past experience of pushing through an injury, and decided it was best to drop out of the competition two days before game time. instead, i stood on the sidelines and cheered for my amazing teammates of TJs Gym!! i am so honored to know all of those women and men who competed and gave it their all with grace, dignity and excitement!

i also want to give a special shout out to my girl Tia who originally signed up because i talked her into it (so she says although i feel it was more of a nudge.) Tia has really taught me a lot over the past couple months and i am so proud she put it all out there and the glow on her face when the competition was over was worth everything!!
i admit that it was hard to watch but after awhile i felt a deep appreciation for the lesson that i am getting out of this event. on top of my physical pain that stems from my right-side neck down the right-side of my back, i have been dealing with intense illness and a major hormonal imbalance in my body. it’s not exactly the wake-up call i wanted but it is what i am getting. so, i know that i have to make serious changes and to find new ways of healing my body outside of physical activity. anyone who knows me, will understand how difficult this is for me to do! and, while i get frustrated with myself at least ten times a day, i know that it will not be like this forever and it is simply a small chapter in the book of my life. i am taking on the changes beginning today and plan to keep track of them all and share what i come up with so that others will find their healing process easier and comforting to know they are not alone.

to everyone that is feeling something. anything. physical pain. emotional pain. spiritual pain. or a combination of them all. i want you to know that on my in breath, i take in your pain, and on my out breath, i blow healing love, compassion and kindness into your heart. (this is called the practice of Tonglen in the teachings of Buddhism.) stay strong and learn from your discomforts and keep breathing into them!

just the basics.

Posted: October 14, 2012 in Uncategorized, writing

i have neglected my passion for writing too much and it is time to just DO IT.
i want to write.
i love to write.
i love to voice my opinion and get people think in a different way.
i love to share my inspirations. my achievements. my failures. my mis-comings and my amazing-ness.

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and then i have days where i do not want to write or deal with the promotion of a blog. and i think that no one really cares what i have to say and what is the point? but, i then realized that it doesn’t really matter. what truly matters is that i just keep writing and sharing and blogging and posting and writing more to get myself out there. i was thinking about this a lot last week. each night i came home from work and all i wanted to do was write but instead i would do work or zone out and watch t.v. shows or spend time with friends/roommates (which, is actually really healing and amazing to do!). then i got an email from my dad in response to my recent article on Breaking Muscle that i sent to my parents and he said:

“i really liked your article on the energy bars you wrote about, too bad we can’t get any of them here in this area. heidi, you have a great talent for writing, well gotta go. talk to you later, love you a bunch,, dad —have a rewarding day, keep smiling  !!!!!”

first, i have the most amazing dad in the world and though what he says to me is simple, it is still very powerful. these words from him are just what i needed to hear to give me a lift-off and to just write!
so, i am not going to worry so much about what other people think and just put myself out there. i will write about random topics or rants or the various foods i eat in one day (which can be a lot!). anything, really.

i just want to have fun with it and allow my free-spirited soul to fly and jump all around this beautiful world of connecting with others! just like how i feel in nature; among the big red woods or covered in the ocean waters, i am completely open and nourished by my own soul and i want to share that with the world! 🙂

hiding in a redwood tree. muir woods.

this past labor day weekend, i had the pleasure to dog-sit for one of my fellow crossfit teammates up in the hills of Mill Valley. i love spending time at their home because i am always inspired to create unique dishes in their spacious kitchen, which is pimped out with cast iron skillets in every size imaginable, a huge gas oven-stove and an alkaline water filter connected to the sink! this is a food-lover and conscious hippie’s dream come true!

my most favorite cacao bean is from the jungles of Ecuador. Ojio Ultimate Superfoods is a great company to support when purchasing raw cacao.

the past few weeks, i have been seeking out other ways to indulge in my obsession and connection to the cacao bean. i reintroduced raw cacao powder to my morning smoothies, i also started making my own raw chocolate sauce and sometimes i mix a spoonful of cacao powder with organic peanut butter to break all the rules! then, inspiration struck in the kitchen this weekend and i decided to use cacao powder as a more savory addition and created the most amazing and delicious version of sweet potato fries! follow the recipe below and enjoy them as a meal or side to any entree!

sweet potatoes, raw organic cacao, cinnamon, cayenne pepper and salt. (coconut oil not pictured.)

sweet potato cacao fries

2 organic sweet potatoes
2 Tbsp of raw organic Ecuadorian cacao powder
1 tsp organic ground cinnamon
1/4 tsp organic cayenne pepper
1 tsp Himalayan sea salt
2 Tbsp organic coconut oil

these fries are ready to devour!


PREP:
turn over to 400 degrees. slice the yams into thick french fry style pieces. melt the organic coconut oil on the baking sheet by putting it in the oven while it is warming up. then, in a bowl, mix the melted organic coconut oil, yam fries, cacao powder, cinnamon, and cayenne pepper until they are all coated. immediately lay the pieces out onto the already coated baking sheet and sprinkle them with sea salt. bake in the oven for 15-20 minutes. you can also turn the broiler on for the last few minutes to acquire an extra crisp to your fries!

2 fried organic eggs from backyard chickens, sauteed kale from garden, fresh tomato, avocado and a side of sweet potato cacao fries!